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Saturday, February 21st, 2004
11:13 am
Hey yall,
its been a while huh? Ive been on vaca so i havent been online that much, actually, i just havent been home that much lol.Anyway, its saturday, and i have so much homework, it sucks.I wanna get it done tho so ill have tommorrw to myself, and i wont have to worry about it. Its crappy out today too, and theres like no one around, and the rents are headin to boston in a lil bit to hit up a boat show, so i have the house to myself, score! haha, oh yeah, partay ;) Nothing really new and exciting...just thinkin abour florida in April, went shopping the other day and got most of my new summer clothes, i gotta order the other ones soon. I just cant wait to be all warm and tan and beutiful, hehe. Well, the first two at least :/ Well, i think i shall go and get started with my work and take a shower and stuff. Peace yall...

"some people know what they want, but they just afraid to get it."

~Kayla

Current Mood: blah
Thursday, February 12th, 2004
8:43 pm
yo
heyyyy,
we had our last game today, against Manchester, it was so close in the first half, we were ahead by two points, and it styayed like that most of the game, but then in the last 5 mins they pulled ahead, and won by like 10...grrrr. I wanted to win soooo bad, but whatever, its over. NOw i am looking forward to tennis, which is my favorite! Vacation in 1 more day, so happy, i dont really have anything to do cept redo my room with all my new stuff from xmas (i know, ima lil slow, shh) and just hang out i guess, o yeah, not to mention a book report and term paper, but well forget those minor details ;)
Well, i shall hop in the shower now and try to find something to wear tommororw, well after i get out, unfourtunatly there is no closet in my shower, haha. Aiight, peace out girl scout.

p.s.- pink shoes kick ass!!!. . .now i just need some :)

"and baby i know, the first cut is the deepest..."

Current Mood: anxious
Monday, February 9th, 2004
4:25 pm
hey hey hey,
Hey everyone! Im baaaack! Hehe, its been a while huh? Ive been so busy with everything, i havent had anytime to write in here. Anyway im home sick today so i have time now alas. So, for recent news. . .let me think. . .oh yeah! We had our semi formal the other night, and it was sooooooooooo much fun! I ended going with Sam, hehe. We all (zach, kate, john, molly, corbin, booby, sam, and i) went to dinner at the fourtune palace before this lil shananiggan and had some dinnderm then just waled over to the hall, and danced the night away, lol. Molly is now officailly my dancing partener ;) Anyway, bballs almost over, just a game tommororw (which i wont be able to play in :() and then one thursday, and thats it! The tennis starts tho!!!Thats my favorite, so im excited. Well, i think i will go and get some hw done, but never fear, i will be back, mwahahaha, peace.

"so come o..o..o..on, cuz without you ill never feel the love inside of me..."

Current Mood: crappy
Saturday, January 24th, 2004
10:53 pm
others only dream of the love that i love. . .
yeah, hey yall. Nuthin much new. I just hung out with zach, john, allie and leah today, not much excting really. I actually had a sucky night tho, I dont know, just am wicked fed up with people, i really am. I just dont feel like i. . .fit in sometimes, i dont know, i just want some diff things than other poeple, and it pisses me off that people cant realize that. I really dont even know what to say, so ima go, heres my song of the moment, it me:

"I'm tired of being what you want me to be
Feeling so faithless
Lost under the surface
I don't know what you're expecting of me
Put under the pressure
Of walking in your shoes


Every step that I take is another mistake to you

I've
Become so numb
I can't feel you there
Become so tired
So much more aware
I'm becoming this
All I want to do
Is be more like me
And be less like you

Can't you see that you're smothering me
Holding too tightly
Afraid to lose control
'Cause everything that you thought I would be
Has fallen apart right in front of you


Every step that I take is
Another mistake to you

And every second I waste
Is more than I can take


And I know
I may end up failing too
But I know
You were just like me
With someone disappointed in you"

peace. . .

Current Mood: pissed off
Wednesday, January 21st, 2004
7:26 pm
Wow, was it me, or was this the longest day ever, prrly cuz we havent had a real day in sooo long, that it just dragged on and on. . . anyway, this was the first day of the new schedule, and not much changed, except a new study hall, no art, and i now have drama with allie, liam, tommy, and sam, haha, this will be an interesting class. Nothing really new and excting here in Rockport, but then again, what do you expect. . .? Semi tickets are starting to go on sale, all i need now is some money, lol. I wander how that is coming along anyway, i thot our class was supposed to be putting it on, but i havent really heard of any progress :/ Ive been thinking about Florida lately, im going to Disney and Marco Island in April with the fam and Booker, we watched the lil DVD thingy they sent us the other nite, it was awesome, i cant wait to be a lil kid again and go on all of the rides and stuff, lol. BUt even before april, i have something else exciting. . .are you ready (drumroll, hehe). . . my Dad got front row, mid court, yes, did you hear that, not second, but FRONT ROW, at the MIDCOURT line, to see the Harlem Globetrotters, i went last year, and from where i was sitting, they were awesome, ill be so close thins year, i could, i could. . .touch them, mwhaha. That will be be fun. But alas (in the words of DB) i must go shower now, but before i go, i wrote a poem for the VV, tell me what you think of it, be brutally honest, haha:

Masquerading around,
trying to be someone else,
well i have caught you,
caught you heading westward bound.
The tables have turned,
most likely upon you,
if your hearts already on fire,
wont you let me burn it too?
The other never notice,
the way things have to be,
even though it never really mattered,
except to you and me.
Now I sit,
alone at nite,
and think to myself,
did I do this right?
My answer comes with the mourning sun,
rising above me,
until the day is done. . .


peace

Current Mood: lonely
Tuesday, January 20th, 2004
8:28 pm
things just arent quite how they seem. . .
heyyy,
just got home from my bball game a lil bit ago, we played essex aggie, lemme just say that this was our first win, lol, wow, no words to describe it, they just need, a lil bit of practice, lol. But anyway, now il just sittin here bored. I have no hw because we finished up our midterms today, so i havent had any real classes in a while, so i ahve noting to do. Well, ima go shower, ill be back later, peace. . .


"I'm addicted to the city lights, I guess you're right
But something changed tonight
I made it through with spontaneity
But this monotony is killing me
It's 2 am man the house is cold, I'm feeling old
Looking back at how time's rolled
I know somewhere stars fill up the night, that must be such a sight
It'd make me whole again inside
I'm getting closer, closer the farther I drive away
I'm getting colder, colder the longer I stay
Don't know how much time I got to spend right here
I've been avoiding but it's time to face my fear, right here
Looks like this episode should end
And I'll miss my friends
I'm distracted by this ambient night, memories bite
Sitting where the rain and pavement fight
I never meant to make the onion cry, but I got to see the tide
To make me whole again inside
I'm getting closer, closer the farther I drive away
I'm giving colder shoulders the longer I stay
Feels like this episode should end
Did you know I've never seen the ocean
In the midst of all this windy commotion
Pack our bags, bust to horizon
Won't stop till I see the sun rising
Looking in to darkest oblivion
Might help humble jaded opinion
What'll come will come of this mission
No guarantee to hinder depression
When I leave I won't make a sound
Make sure no one's around
Where am I headed? I'm headed westward bound
I can't breathe this Midwest air tonight…
Feels like this masquerade should end
And I'll miss my friends
I need more time to spend
With my friends"

peace

Current Mood: aggravated
Sunday, January 18th, 2004
2:32 pm
hey, heyy, somethins different in the world today. . .
hey yall,
another exciting day here in rockport. . .pshhh, riight. Its been snowing all morning. I just got home from bball a lil bit ago, that was hell, i still cant catch my breath, he just made us run cuz we werent "paying attention", but of course we were, ahah. Well, you all will be happy to know that i am all set for the semi, dress, shoes. . . .but still no date, lol, Rockport truly sux, i know ill end up going by myself, o so fun /:0 (angry face) But whatever, ill figure it out later. Booker and sped are coming over to eat and watch Pirates of the Carribe, this shall be interesting, lol. Well, im out, ill be back later, peace.

~me

Current Mood: bitchy
Friday, January 16th, 2004
9:43 am
woo hoo
Ahoy hoy,
guess what. . . NO SCHOOL!!! haha, yes, thats right a four day weekend, aw yeah. I'm so happy. Im going to the mall to get a dress and some shoes and stuff, then ill prrly hang out with ppl later. I really hope we have a game tho, i am finally in the mood to play, haha. Its soooooooo cold out today, w/o the wind its -2, brrr. Chilly willy. I went over Allies last nite with Timmah and we watched Something about Mary, haha, it was funny, and me and Allie are now Snickerpuss and Woogie, um, yeah, long story, haha, well, im off to dry my hair so it doesnt freeze on the way, peace yall.

"Well if you are what you eat in my case I'll be sweet so come and get some

I'm so over it."


"Good-day sunlight

I'd like to say how truly bright you are

You don't know me but I know you

You're my favorite star

Follow you I will so lets get moving



Who needs shelter when the mornings coming?

Absolutely there's no one

Who needs shelter from the sun?

Not me, no. not anyone.



By your clock the cock rooster crows

Then off to work where everybody goes

Slow, But eventually they get there

Picking up the day shift back where all left off

Confined and pecking at relationships

You know it's only a worthless piece of shit



Who needs shelter when the mornings coming?

Absolutely there's no one

Who needs shelter from the sun?

Not me, no. not anyone.



I'd sleep it all away but the sun wont let me

I'd miss those lovely days of summer



Good-day sunlight

I'd like to say how truly bright you are

You don't know me but I know you

You're my favorite."

~Jason Mraz

Current Mood: curious
Thursday, January 15th, 2004
2:42 pm
hola
Heyyy,
wats shakin everyone. Wow, i just got de ja vu (wonder if i spelled that right) of hammond castle. I dont know why, that was reeeaaallllyyy random tho. . . but now that i think back, that was so fun, i met so many awesome ppl, but havent seen them in forever. . . there was that kid, um, with the red eyes, well, "red eyes", he was soooo nice.Bt, i will see them next year, so its okay. Anyway, midterms suck, they were soooooooooo hard today, esp the chem one, holy muffin (long story), but english is tommorow, which is my good subject, so hopefully ill do good on that one. Hmm, what else, my dress for the semi came. . .but, hence, as it never fails becouse i am so oddly shaped, lol, it does not fit. . .i like it, but i guess ill get something else at the mall on sat. I have bball at 4:00 today, grrrr, Larsen will hopefully let us scrimmage tonite, if not, then we will anyway, ahah, Well, ima go and study and have sumthin to eat before i go, but, before i leave, let me just leave you with this wonderful song,hehe:

"breathe on for luck, breathe in so deep this air is blessed, you share with me, this night is wild, so calm and dull, these hearts they race with self control, your lips, are smooth, as they graze mine, were doing, aw were doing nothin at all. . . my hopes are so high that your kiss might kill me, so wont you kill me, so i die happy, my heart is yours to fill or burst, to break or bury, or wear as jewlery, whichever you prefer. . ."

peace

Current Mood: hopeful
Tuesday, January 13th, 2004
9:29 pm
howdy
"How are all you fineeee ladies and gents out there doing tonite...?Well, thats good, you know what was wierd. The other day i went to a fair, and you know how they have those big containers of jelly beans, and they say "guess how many are in the jar and you win a prize!". . . i was like no man, i just want some jelly beans, guess how many i want. . .if you guess a handful, then you win."

Hey,
I am back once again. Today was an okay day, i had my art midterm, which was fun, then i got to go home. Other than that, not much more exciting stuff going on. . .my dress is coming on thurs, and im goin to the mall on thurs to get some shoes,hopefully.Grr, i am just so sick of everything here, the same old routine, and studying, i have had enough, well, i shall head to bed and contemplate everything, but let me ask you this before i go:

"why is it that when people have the best, most wonderful, perfect thing standing right before them,reaching out its hand. . . they try to make themsleves believe that it is not, even though, in their heart, they know its true"

peace

Current Mood: aggravated
Monday, January 12th, 2004
3:28 pm
heyyy
Hey yall,
Let me start off saying that was a sucky day. I can't stop worrying about the midterms, and i just found out that my parents think that i dont care about anything, and as they have pretty much told me before. . .i suck, amd i will never be good enough and i am not going to college and will be living with them forever.Haha, yeah right, i am geting out of this fucking town as soon as i can, and never looking back. I love all you guys so much, and its nothin to do with you (you know who you are) but it everyone else, and my parents, and teachers, and this town is just too fucking small, that you cant even be yourself, people have judged you long ago, and thats where your gonna stay.Arrrggghhhh, o man, i hate this, i really do. "...im sorry i cant be perfect, now its just too late, and we cant go back, im sorry i cant be perfect..."Oh well, you know what, i have made a new philosophy for myself, i give up trying to make everyone else happy, its all for me now, yes, lets try that. . .ill get back to yall on that. . .
peace

Current Mood: aggravated
Saturday, January 10th, 2004
10:28 pm
holla
Life is good.HAHA. Well, i just got home from a hockey game at Gloucester. I sat with Timmah and Molly, who so kindly explained to me then entire game all nite,lol. The were actually ahead for a while thanks to the 2 goals by Yemma and Reed, but then, they lost, but i still love them anyway, haha. But now i am sitting here chattin eating froot loops , and i just found out that i am can getthe dress i wanted for the semi!!!:)I love it, i am so excited, heehee. Well, u guess i shall go now, but i will be nack later with my exciting life, peace yall.

"Life is what you make it"

~Kayla

Current Mood: accomplished
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